狂乱家族日記
Diary of The Frenzy Family
Name: Wee Wei Jie Elson
Nicknames: eL, Ikai
el_wave@hotmail.com
North view Primary, ACS Barker Road, Singapore sports school, ACS Independent, Ngee Ann Poly
Hobbies: reading mange, watching anime, swimming, sleeping
狂乱日記
Wednesday, October 22, 2008, 10/22/2008 09:32:00 PM
Well... tough week I am having here... my body is at the edge of breaking down... constantly in pain... to be honest... i have been in the low mood even though i may not look like it... partly also due to the pain i feeling... my body is feeling really very painful and it also feels very heavy... it is like if i ever relax my body down while standing up... I will just fall down on the floor...another reason to me feeling down.... is some what about the same old inferior complex feeling i having.... haha... i know i know... u guys who are reading and know me... will be thinking: " come on, get over it already.." but its not about the past i am looking at... but i have also no idea what i am feeling inferior at too lol.... maybe its just about the future and stuff...
This morning took the shuttle bus... and same old things happen... me not smiling equals scary... so no one will dare to sit beside me... its quite weird... no matter how filled is the bus... no one is dared to sit beside me... unless someone is forced to... even if someone sat beside me... i can feel like a gap, as in something like a barrier been projected between the sits... to me its rather uncomfortable...
Other than all of these.... I also felt very easily tired out and constantly wanting to sleep.... even though i had plenty full of sleep... maybe its the pain that is causing my willpower to run out and thus been tired or maybe my body is wanting some or rather big amount of rest to grow/recover... the problem here is that I personally do not like to sleep for too long even though I LOVE TO SLEEP because whenever I take long sleeps... I tend to get weird dreams which I very much hate a lot... all those unpleasant memories will just be coming back and in different forms....
ARGH... heck it all... its not like me to think of all of these so much... I am now better off living the way I am... day by day... hour by hour... minute by minute... seconds by seconds... until there is something that makes me want to live for tomorrow comes... I shall be doing this...
Quotes
The sky always covers everything,
Even a false reality on this uncertain earth.