狂乱家族日記
Diary of The Frenzy Family
Name: Wee Wei Jie Elson
Nicknames: eL, Ikai
el_wave@hotmail.com
North view Primary, ACS Barker Road, Singapore sports school, ACS Independent, Ngee Ann Poly
Hobbies: reading mange, watching anime, swimming, sleeping
狂乱日記
Thursday, June 5, 2008, 6/05/2008 09:33:00 PM
Yesterday, was the last paper for my common test, the ITB paper. Funny thing is I didnt even study for it yet i still have the confidence that i will actually pass the paper. The feeling of leaving early after you finish a paper is so weird, everyone will stare at you and wonder 'how the hell he do so fast' or 'Ah... He must have given up.' haha. Knowing myself, I am not those who will really give up even if it is the last second. After the paper, I went to Kbox with my frens. It's been a while since i had so much fun, singing my head out, laughing about. Not to mention my first time to go to such a place with friends and have so much fun. Starting from today till 2 weeks and 4 days, I will be having my holiday.Seriously, This bond called 'Friendship' can really be a very interesting thing. Last time, I always hope for holiday to come as soon as possible, so that I can be alone, so that I can get away from everyone, so that I can be myself. Now, for the first time, I dont really wish that holiday will come at all, even if I do not get the time to be alone or be myself. Even though, I am quite used to being lonely but this time it's different. I want to be together with everyone, even if I am not being myself, even if I am just putting up an act.
I am still who I am used to be. Serious and always want to be alone, even though I may be happy and cheerful on the outside. But this is the first time, I feel a sense of belonging, a place where I belong to, from friends. I always thought friends are people who only think of themselves and come to you only when you have the thing or ability they need. Using each other, betraying each other, hurting each other. Even though, its different now but my view of that will not change.
Like people said, it is better to be alert or else you will be sorry afterwards.
For now, lets just see how am I gonna spend there holiday... whether to be the same as usual, work and training, or something unexpected appointments helps to break the 'usual'.
Lastly, whenever people ask who will they give the key to their hearts too, I also cannot answer. But this time I may have found my answer.
ELSON'S GOLDEN PHRASES
'The surface may not show but the inside may be different from what you see. Try to notice the inside, do not be misled by the surface.'
'The truth within the truth. Even if one knows the truth, it may not be the whole thing. One part of the truth always leads to the other.'