狂乱家族日記
Diary of The Frenzy Family
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Name: Wee Wei Jie Elson Nicknames: eL, Ikai el_wave@hotmail.com North view Primary, ACS Barker Road, Singapore sports school, ACS Independent, Ngee Ann Poly Hobbies: reading mange, watching anime, swimming, sleeping |
狂乱日記
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Tuesday, June 24, 2008, 6/24/2008 10:16:00 PM
So freaking bored... so many problems have arise, problems that relate to my past... why does it have to keep coming back to haunt me whenever I finally begin to enjoy myself... It is as if I am not allowed to enjoy myself... Feeling confused between both hatred of the past and hatred of the present... I just dont know what to do with it anymore... everything seems so confusing... I want everything to end but nothing is ending... instead more and more things are starting... I am always encouraging people and advising people with many different things but weird enough the advices given even though it is said by me, I cannot execute it myself... My feelings, my emotions cannot be expressed out properly... I just want to give everything up already... No reason to continuing it...Elson phrases Life is represented by journey Journey is represented by Living Walk on in life as a journey to prove that you are living Half way through the journey you will find out burdens are heavy That is how life goes on Sometimes to protect, those you love your hands must be stained with blood Will you still seek for power? Dying is not as scary as being treated not existed when died, people will keep you in their hearts When existence is denied, no one will notice you are there That is the painful part Not able to express true feelings and emotions is very tiring People always regret whenever they did not get a chance to express it So should I live in a life full of regrets or a life full of no regrets? That itself is also a very tough question Scared of rejection, scared of being hurted All sort of fear comes out when it comes to expressing No one is able to escape this endless cycle of regreting and fearing Courage and help is needed in order to escape from this cycle Both hating and being hated is very tiring, but no one cannot help but to hate the person they despised hate cannot be forgotten, cannot be lost even after a long time, hate is still there Even so, I still want to forget it, I still want it to be lost How can I do that... I seriously do not know |